Spoke+Antagonism+(song)


 * Spoke Antagonism** is a song off the album with the same name by Eth Eonel.

The song was written in late October 2009 by Eth Eonel, and deals with a sort of revelation he had about how his childhood has formed him. A strict perfectionist from an early age, he would have problems later in dealing with criticism. This in turn led to an unwillingness to interact with other people. This antisocial behaviour (the "spoke antagonism") showed to be destructive, but was turned into something positive with the support of Eth's fiancée, who appears in the end of the song, singing the ending chorus.

Lyrics
As a child untouched by error Conflicts were my only terror So my choice was wise No one could criticize Honed perfection to perfection Building on the misconception Perfect’s always good So I did what I could

Cried when met with criticism Strayed away from realism A damn affectionist A spoke antagonist What is spoke antagonism? Is it pure impossiblism? Music in my ears Has been for all these years

I remember all I’ve seen I can’t escape what’s been I am a mocking bird The sum of all I’ve heard

No past event is gone I am the sum of all I’ve done Kept here, right within my chest A spoke from all the rest

Sure it sounds a bit obsessive Some of it is quite impressive But all is theory And words can not be me So what am I, a wheel in motion or the spoke of pure devotion? A ’self’ apologist A stupid egoist

She said that we all sometimes make a sound that doesn’t quite rhyme I could not believe but soon I would percieve Dreaming on, but keeping it real finding my place in the big wheel no design, no god I’m not perfect, I am flawed

And I’m wiser, now I see I shouldn’t wish to be A strict perfectionist A spoke antagonist

It’s hard to live by but now at least I try An anti-antagonist A spoke evangelist

(And she said) It’s ok to be wrong our mistakes make us strong you’re perfect in my eyes and I love you all the time